Today is a sad day. :(
I hope I can get out of this soon. But for now, I can only bear with it.
Tell me, am I really dumb (question applies to my intelligence and the decision to not leave)?
If I stay, I'll only receive more insults on my intelligence and capability when I make more careless mistakes. I am expected to know everything, but I'm just a greenhorn.
Why don't I leave the place? Not like I really need the money. Not like there's anyone worthy of me to stay on. Not like I'll bear any consequences other than feeling sorry.
D tore open my healing wound and lick it with his acid tongue.
My ability (to study, to do work) is really the one thing that I'm most concern of. I know I'm no good, but please don't tell it in my face because I'm always trying to be better. No one will probably see it. I'm never good enough to be seen. It really sucks when you're already trying and people still want to put you down.
I should start revising for tuition soon.
P.S. Dear blog, aren't you glad you're just a virtual thing? For if you're a physical journal, you'll be soaking wet by now.
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